Glancing Back While Moving Forward
A year ago I wrote a blog entitled, "Decreasing Urgency." At that time, it had been about a year and half from when I was diagnosed with advanced cancer, and because my medication was controlling my disease well, I was able to feel some relief, and hope. I realized that I was moving away from my initial sense of panic, that was driving me to try to get things done quickly...before I lost my chance. I wanted my children, both in their twenties, to "ripen" before I died. I was secure that I had mothered them as best as I could, but there were a few things I still needed to tweak. I needed to get my house in order - organizing my belongings and getting rid of unused "stuff" that had quietly, and insidiously, accumulated in our basement. My last quest was to create as many memories for Wynn, unrelated to my illness, as I could. The priorities I had a year ago are still very importa...